Fred Abbasi

So, today is my birthday and last year at exactly this time we were all at Armin van Buren. The whole group was there and all of us girls had gone together and the whole reason we went was to hear Armin, but you know what? We barely stayed in the room he was in. Instead, we spent the enitre night in the other room with all of you guys. Who needed Armin when you were the life of the party?! Damn, it still tears me up inside just looking at pics and reading memories....I think that is why I dont visit this website as much as I'd like....either I come on and end up glued to the computer screen, compulsively reading and re-reading everything for hours or i can only stand to look at a handful of pics from the gallery before tears start welling up and I cant make out anything on the screen anymore. I know you realize by now how much everyone LOVES, ADORES, RESPECTS, ADMIRES, and MISSES you. For some reason everytime I get on I-95 I start thinking about u and esp. when I pass the Lorton exit:( Last week I was driving on the highway for 25 mins. and all I could do was cry because I was thinking about how you were the ONLY person that I could never in my life picture being mean to someone or trying to intentionally hurt or put down another. you simply didnt have it in your heart and because it was so pure and wonderful, I couldn't fathom it any other way. Would give anything to have u here:((

Fredddddddddddddddd!!!! So, I just got home from hanging out with Samira...and guess what we talked about for over two hours.... you. You are the topic of every conversation, the only thing on our minds, the thing we miss the most. You are still so much apart of our worlds, if only you were here...as opposed to us talking about memories. Oh GOSH how many memories we had! We started talking about one, and it would remind us of another, and another and a freaking nother...we miss you beyond belief. Like i've said a thousand times i've endured so many deaths these past few years, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and none compare to the pain of losing you.

So, todays officially Diwa's birthday...and we both said how much we wish you were here to celebrate with us...you were the LIFE of the party! Made sure everybody had a smile on their face, but no smile compared to yours...

You were such a special person, and I knew you were amazing but didnt appreciate it....You were always such an angel, and now you truly are one...I love you. We all love you beyond words. You were and always will be one in a million.

Love you Fred...We truly miss you

Fred...

tomorrow it's going to be five months since i saw you, and it hurts to know that it's still going to be much longer than that. I look through pictures, watch movies and notice how happy the family was, i dont think things will ever be the way they used to. Will we ever, as a family, be able to smile again? No other celebration will ever feel the same, at all the family parties your presence was truly a blessing. especially that dance... who dances like that? who walks to the dance floor clapping like that? i dont think we knew than but you were an angel amongst us the whole time... a very appreciative, caring, and loving person. i dont think you wanted anyone to think of you as mister nice guy, but deep down inside you were. i remember in 2002, i had a shirt that my friend made, and you liked it your like its sooo niceee. so for your birthday i was like let me just get one made for him. i told my friend and on it, it had said "PACHA" and on the front it had something nice (short-term memory)... i came to ur house and was like hey fred i have a present, it was NOTHING at all. but you LOVED it, you were like this is the best present i ever got. im thinking calm down its just a shirt, i thought he was saying that just as a thanks and to make me feel good, so i was like im sure he'll probably like lose it or u know use it as a "safii" for his table. Sooo a couple months later we went to his house again, and he wasnt there, I didnt even remember the shirt, but i dont remember who i was with needed to get something out of his room, they opened the door and the shirt was there.. he had it hanging on his wall. I was shocked , it was JUST A SHIRT. but it meant a lot, and shows a lot about his character and that biiiig heart of his. and it sucks that at the time we didnt realize it. no one could ever take his place.

He truly was an amazing person, and I'm proud to say he was MY uncle...

I love you and misss you soooo much Fred... Can't wait to see you again.. <3

Hey fred, oh man i miss you soo much right now. i haven't written a memory because i don't know what to write and i didn't have many memories like everyone else. i remember one before i met you. i was in the car with Hanifa and we somehow were talking about noor, and she asked if i had met you yet, and i said no, i don't think so. and she was said that i should because you were soo fun and nice and soo easy to talk to. and she never said this about anyone to me, and i was just really amazed. When i did finally meet you at AZ's party, you just radiated and were the nicest and sweetest person ever. You were such a gentleman. it broke my heart when you left and i couldn't stop crying. i've never lost anyone in my life and it just hit me really hard. i didn't know wat to do when i found out. i felt soo guilty b/c i was at babylon when it happened and i just felt lik how could i be out dancing when your life was taken away. i haven't stepped in babylon since and i don't know if i can....
i'm pretty sure you already know, but i made a slideshow for you, and your sisters and cousins and close friends have it. i played it at the last candle light vigil and it was soo sad... you were such a great person. I also picniked a couple pics of you and samira, and they were beautiful, you two were perfect. it makes me soo sad to think about wat she is going through. her, your sisters, and mom, please give them strength...you were a beautiful person and truly heaven sent. no one could replace you in our hearts.
i miss you and i love you! <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zAs9Q1GvsWU

^that's one of my favorite religious videos, its very meaningful...hope you guys like it...
We Miss You, Uncle Fred..